then or now

when I look back at time.. I don't know when I can say is the time of my life.

when I was little I didn't know much about what's going on in the world or just around, therefore I didn't have much influence on what happened around me nor to me. I just followed the grown-ups and did what they told me to.

then time pass by and I got to know what is happening around me, what others do and what is considered to be "normal". I wanted to feel the freedom and I started having troubles with my parents.

 once you've tasted the sweetness of something nice, it is hard to let it go.

now I've got the whole arm, life doesn't seem to be easier but the opposite.

I saw my post where I wrote "take me back in time" well I'm not sure I want to now. Sure I didn't have so many things I have to do and face myself as I have to now, but were things really better then? I just lived in ignorance..

I really feel like my life is falling apart and I don't know how to get hold on it.
I've been sick a lot and I made it through, and now when I'm good to go, it seems to be even harder. The focus has been moved... from the physical to the mental..

and who am I fooling

nothing is easy

who am I fooling

I keep getting exhausted by nothing


just another random post of my thoughts, that came to me
I don't know about it makes sense or not
I don't think it will make sense to me when I wake up tomorrow morning. if I ever get up from bed
I guess life is to survive, other are fighting too but I'm the one who is crying about it